Guilt about pregnancy post tfmr
A little background- I had my tfmr at 24+5 due to my daughter having an ultra rare gene mutation (only a few hundred worldwide have it) which caused multiple structural abnormalities in her brain. It was a somewhat gray diagnosis technically, but my maternal instincts, as well as multiple doctors clinical judgement allowed my husband and I to make a black and white decision. She would not have had an easy life, therefore I would take the burden for her.
That being said, when I think about getting pregnant again, I feel as though I’m undeserving. I have a healthy 2 year old and dreamed of making her a big sister. I painfully want her to be a big sister so bad. But I feel as though my tfmr with the somewhat grey decision makes me undeserving of having another baby.
Does anyone feel this guilt? Looking for any advice.