Take meds or not?
ADVICE PLEASE! My diagnosing psych said if I get an ECG and urine screen done, he can start prescribing me Vyvanse. I know that meds work great on adhd, but I have some concerns:
I don't want to become dependent on meds - yes I'm struggling without them right now, but I'm scared that once I start taking them I won't ever be able to do anything without them again. I feel like I'll never be able to 'fix' my bad habits (procrastination etc) on my own and just rely on medication forever.
I'm also scared that once I start taking them, my personality and mannerisms will change a lot (because in all honesty, I don't really know what my real personality is since I mask according to the people I'm with) and that will somehow impact my relationships.
Very much a me problem - but I still live with my parents and I haven't told them about my adhd since idk how well they would take it. How would I hide my meds? My mum likes to go through my room to help me keep it tidy (yes this is very lovely) but I'm scared she's gonna find new meds and freak out. I also don't know how I'm gonna go and get the tests done since we're on Life360 and there's no reason for me to go to the GP randomly.
EDIT: I had a few well-meaning comments concerned about this, so I'm gonna put it here: I am an adult, not constantly monitored, it's more about feeling bad making up excuses. They would be asking from a place of genuine curiosity/concern.
Has anyone else had the same concerns but still started medication anyway? How did you overcome the concerns?
My other treatment option is to search for an adhd coach but I'm very much aware that meds are heaps more effective - but again, if anyone has had positive experience with adhd coaching please comment!
Edit: thanks to everyone who commented, I couldn't reply to all of you but please know that all your advice and input is very much appreciated. When I next get the chance, I will be visiting my GP for the tests and then hopefully start medication asap - I have been persuaded in the right direction lol. Hopefully this post can help any others who are in my position!