My relationships with everyone suck, and I hate my friends even though they make me happy and love me and I’m not doing well when it comes to my future, even though I’m about to graduate in a few months I can hardly study, and I don’t even know what to do. My life feels totally empty, but I keep doing the things I have to do, and I don’t feel anything about anything. It’s been 3 years like this The only person who made me feel something is ignoring me and I feel like it’s making me even more empty because I can’t have deep feelings for anyone else.
For the first time, I considered someone important to me. I need him so much, even though he treats me like shit ,I feel like he’s the only one who can make me feel like there’s a point in being alive Also when we used to talk he would sexually harass me and I do what he wants so he doesn’t hate me .