worst flareup ever
Hi so dude I literally haven't been able to eat normally for a week now bc of gastroparesis flareup caused by ts and my heart is literally so fucked up like dude yesterday I had 120 hr while laying down for many many minutes and I was like "wow ts isn't calming down huh" so I GENTLY reached for my pulse ox, and when it was reading it, suddenly my hr just up and PLUMMETED TO 49 within a couple SECONDS. 71 BEAT DROP. It stayed there for like I minute before spiking back up and I swear to God I saw the other side I've NEVER felt that before. It was miserable and my mama and bf kept pushing for me to go to the ER but its so taxing so I kept denying. I fell asleep right after that repeated like 4-5 times cuz I literally couldn't move and I ended up falling asleep in my full outfit and make up and now I feel yucky but whatever. I'm so tired of this. ☹️ I've dealt with ts my entire life but its genuinely getting worse idk what to do. I wish I didn't have such an aggressive version of it dude. 🙁🙁
OH OH OH ALSO I ACTUALLY MADE AND MEMORISED A SPEECH ABOUT TS FOR AP LANGUAGE FINALS (it was really good trust my proof is that I've gotten full points + sophistication 4 times 🥱🥱🥱) and guess what happened🥰🥰I forgot basically the entire thing because my heart genuinely stopped and gave me major palpitations and I almost passed out in front of everyone 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I never got to finish the speech the way that I wanted to so it'd be more impactful. I'm so upset. But whatever I guess it's on theme LMAAOAOAO but yea not good I'm really really peeved by this and I hate the fact it'll only get worse for me the older I get but whatever bro lmao!!!! So funny!!!!!!!!!