u/GabiRachelle

hi everyone! f19, for the last like 2ish years i identified as lesbian because it was easier than explaining this. so i only can imagine dating, marrying or sleeping with women and have absolutely no desire to do any of that with a man. for reference i have ocd, and don’t do well with doubts and i was like i should sleep with a man just to see if i like it, but it was like never a real desire (if that makes any sense). but the issue is, i can find some men attractive and yk feel something ig but i never ever want to do anything with them. whenever i see a man i could find attractive, picturing taking that attraction anywhere isn’t necessarily repulsive (im not disgusted by men necessarily) it just feels like hitting a wall or the space where i could give my body to man feels like a void (idk if this makes any sense). but another issue (warning a little nsfw) is that sometimes i’ll watch gay (male) porn and feel something down there but for me it’s not really the parts i’m attracted to it’s more the situation, if that any sense.

for me, my love and attraction for women feels like home. i genuinely have such a deep love and appreciation for women, as a woman, and could never see myself dating men on that principle. genuinely in every universe i would choose to be a woman whose attracted to other women. but this all to say, i see on online lesbian spaces you can’t call yourself a lesbian if you feel any attraction towards men and this has worried me about my sexuality as i have previously identified as bi.