Can anyone relate to sibling addiction?
I'm a 31y/o F, my older brother 35y/o is addicted to pills. He has been on and off with recovery for a long time and he was doing ok for a while but yesterday I found out he used again. He lives in Ohio with his girlfriend and her family but they have been fighting lately and he cheated on her so they are now broken up, I assume he will obviously be kicked out and who knows where he will end up staying..
After talking to my mom on the phone about it and hearing her breakdown about how she had to call the whole family to let them know not to give him any money no matter what he says cause he is known for lying, I broke down too. I love my brother so much and am scared more this time than ever before since this time is a lot more serious. I don't know how to go about this with him, the last time he relapsed was about 11 months ago when I came out there to visit and noticed him acting different, he straight up told me he relapsed and he was coming off the pills which is why he was acting like that. This was during a family get together a little after I had just gotten there so I was in my head and trying not to cry around my family. Long story short I had a few drinks and I broke down crying in front of my parents about it. My brother comes out and asks what's wrong and I lashed out at him. We had a long talk by ourselves and I basically told him i can't take this anymore and that if he relapsed again I would have to cut him out of my life.
That was the first time I've ever told him that and hoped it would get through to him somehow. Now that it's happened again I feel like I don't want to cut him out because I love him so much and am scared of what will happen to him but I also don't want to talk to him cause I'm so upset and it hurts me so much to the point where it might be better. I'm at a loss here and it's affecting my mental health, I tend to overthink things or just think the worst. Any advice on how to cope or handle this?