u/Gabs354

That’s it. That’s literally my biggest wish. These psychopathic demons physically, sexually, and psychologically tortured me for so many years that I now have chronic health issues because of them. They are disgusting monsters that deserve to rot in hell for all the torment they have caused me, and I will be the happiest person alive the day I find out they’re both dead. Which probably won’t be for a while, as the whole reason they’re still here is because they suck the living daylights out of everyone and anyone they can get their hands on. Disgusting creatures.

Long story short I (21F) grew up in a severely abusive household (a father with BPD and a narcissistic mother) and was physically, sexually and emotionally tortured from the ages of 4-18 when I moved out to university. I don’t have many friends as I have CPTSD and tend to self-isolate a lot, however I do have a couple of people I can message when I’m feeling really low. On the whole, however, I spend ~95% of my time alone. I have just graduated, I’m super broke and nearing the end of my accommodation tenancy, and I’ve been applying for jobs but can’t seem to get any interviews. I’m becoming increasingly anxious and the insomnia is back full force. I’m feeling super depressed overall about the fact I’m stuck doing nothing as I have no money, whilst having no one to emotionally vent to or just hang out with as I have no family either. I’ve literally been holding myself up my whole life but I’m so exhausted and just depressed about the fact I’m so alone in life. If I had money at least I could do the things that bring me joy, like travel a bit, buy more books, day trips etc. Am I overreacting? I just feel so stuck in life.

I am truly at my wits end. I’ve had H2S SIBO for a year and NOTHING HAS ERADICATED IT. I’ve managed to improve my symptoms by ~50% with many supplements, strict low FODMAP diet, and meal spacing, but I’ve been doing this for the past 6 weeks now, alongside oregano 150mg/day and Atrantil 2 capsules/day, but the SIBO is still there. I still have diarrhoea (where my body literally excretes anything and everything, with painful cramping whereby I will go to the toilet 10+/day) 2-3x per week, awful bloating and gas daily, and I still can’t eat anything that’s not very low FODMAP. I’ve been eating the same 3 meals for 6 weeks and the oregano has not helped. I have very severe fat malabsorption, with pale, oily, smelly stools, dry skin and hair, which has resulted in severe hair loss, fatigue, insomnia and brain fog. What am I doing wrong? What else should I add or try? I can’t access Rifaximin in the U.K. and the NHS gastro I saw refused to even acknowledge SIBO. It’s not possible to see any other gastroenterologists unless I go private. What should I do?

I am on the verge of ending it and I’m suicidal every day. I’ve had H2S SIBO for a year (I only recently, after hundreds of hours of research, understood it was H2S, as we do not have the test here in the UK) and NOTHING HAS ERADICATED IT. I’ve managed to improve my symptoms by ~50% with many supplements, strict low FODMAP diet, and meal spacing, but I’ve been doing this for the past 6 weeks now, alongside oregano 150mg/day and Atrantil 2 capsules/day, but the SIBO is still there. I still have severe diarrhoea (where my body literally excretes anything and everything, with painful cramping whereby I will go to the toilet 15-25x/day) 3-4/7 days of the week, horrific bloating and gas DAILY, and I still can’t eat anything that’s not very low FODMAP. I’ve been eating the same 3 meals for 6 weeks and the oregano has not helped. I have very severe fat malabsorption, with pale, oily, smelly stools, very very dry skin and hair, which has resulted in severe hair loss, fatigue, insomnia and brain fog. What am I doing wrong? What else should I add or try? I cannot do this anymore!

I am on the verge of ending it and I’m suicidal every day. I’ve had SIBO for a year and NOTHING HAS ERADICATED IT. I’ve managed to improve my symptoms by ~50% with many supplements, strict low FODMAP diet, and meal spacing, but I’ve been doing this for the past 6 weeks now, alongside oregano and Atrantil, but the SIBO is still there. I still have severe diarrhoea 3-4/7 days of the week, horrific bloating and gas DAILY, and I still can’t eat anything that’s not very low FODMAP. I’ve been eating the same 3 meals for 6 weeks and the oregano has not helped. I have fat malabsorption, dry skin, dry hair and severe hair loss, fatigue, insomnia and brain fog. My GP in the UK has not been helpful at all. I am willing to go to a private gastroenterologist or functional medicine doctor in the UK who would prescribe Rifaximin. Does anyone know of one?