The darkest of times
Been diagnosed for 3 months now with symptoms for almost 2 years. It took over a year just to even start testing. I had the emptying study and was at 30-35% after 4 hours. The first thing they did for me was mirtazapine/remeron 7.5mg for two months. It didn’t help anything. So now I’m at 15mg for the last month. Still don’t feel any different.
I have not been able to work due to stomach discomfort/pain/malnutrition/exhaustion. I had a good career before all this happened. Was on track to get my first house (I’m 36), almost had all my debt cleared. My life as a single dad with 2 kids was really looking great.
In the last year and a half it’s been a compete 180. I have 3 credits cards almost maxed, haven’t worked in a while and am basically out of savings. My doctor won’t give me a letter for disability. Either way disability takes years to get in my area. If I’d even qualify.
Im like the most resilient guy I know and I’m scared now. Like really really scared. I’m going to lose my place to live soon unless something changes fast. Which means I’ll also most likely lose my custodial parent rights to my kids mom. She’s completely evil and if that happens, she will make sure I don’t see them as much as possible. I spent thousands on lawyers just to get that right.
I’m at the end of my wits here. Doctors won’t move any faster, I have no family that can help, and no assistance from the county unless I do work that they give me through some program that I can’t do!
Idk what I’m even doing posting this. It’s not going to change anything. I just generally feel like my life is over almost 2 years in. And I have no idea what to do. I see posts in here and they all sound awful. The ones that sound ok seem like they have good support and partners. Which I am lacking.