Transition give meltdown. Me no like meltdown. Big and scary. Get hurt. Scream. No want bruise and feel bad. Autism hard. Try timer. Try first then. No help. Night extra hard. Awake to sleep make extra bad meltdown. Sometime last hours. Hurt. No get why. Has Plushie and dark room and no pressure self but still too much. Confuse and sad.
Found new stim. Try new AAC app. Has customer app. Can now do verbal stim on AAC!!! Happppppy! Like press buttons. Like new app. Custom big better. No custom hard talk. Like talk custom. Make talk hard less. new stim make happy. Yayayayayyayayayayayaya!!!!
Me had intake today. Me work on emotional regulate and interoception along with meltdown prevent. How work? What expect? Anyone else have OT before? How work? Sacred. Want know what expect plz. Me has MSN Autism (with selective mute not anxiety based), ADHD-C and physical stuff but not focus like other stuff.
Feel alone. I try really hard to communicate but words no work. Brain fluent but words get stuck. Sometimes can speak lots. But sometimes words trap.
I hate having communication broke. It not fair. Why can I think good but words no work. It hurts. No one get it. Blame me for saying bad thing but not try.
What worse is sometime word no struck. Then get taken away.
Want talk have lot say but can’t. Even when can words go too fast or only some work so no one understand. Wish could conversation good. Want to be normal.