Im very confused, please help ;-;
So im justing typing this all from scratch and out my mind so please correct me if i say anything wrong or of the sort. PLEASE
So i cant lie im 19 and for the past 4-4 1/2 years ive been thinking about being trans. Ofc def not as hard as before because idk lol but i still def read TONS of trans comics lmao. And i honestly have recently kinda opened the gates of my trans realization but im still kinda getting held by chains of self doubt. Because even before i felt that maybe I was just a femboy because i like dressing feminine and everything. But i love long hair that girls have and the dresses, the makeup, and just so much more(not gonna yap). But im looking at how other trans girls look and IM SO ENVIOUS, THEY LOOK SO AMAZINGGGGG AUGHH. And it makes me nervous that i wont look as good… i dont see a lot of colored trans girls and it kinda makes me nervous(as i am colored myself) And also im scared of what others would think of me and also how my voice is. Im just having a Crazy lots of things im nervous about. I just feel so feminine and id love to become one but i feel that society is kinda pushing me back so im scared. Also i cant lie i still feel like im just overthinking it but idk i just feel that i would at least be a girl at some point im my life or itd be im vain lmao. Theres so much id still say lmao but i got work in like 5hrs and all that . Please give advice :,)