What if instead of rethinking/digging your 'mistakes' up you realize you have always been worthy?
Then if you realized you have always been worthy what if you look at your 'mistakes' as you just being a fully capable perfect being that had a human reaction?
What if you then realized, that you were always worthy and perfect, that your human reactions were perfectly fine despite the others person's reaction to it?
What if you then realized, whatever the other person did or say had nothing to do with you?
What if you then realized the other person just isn't on your level?
I had let go of 'sp' and got LOVE mirrored back to ME by a man who had his eyes on me for a LONG time. We were briefly together for 3 months, 3 years ago(!). I wasn't at my best back then and took it out on him a number of times yet he always stayed. He told me he had to let me go so that I could work on myself, so that I didn't have any more pressure on me from him. He ALWAYS had seen ME, who I AM, way before I saw it myself.
This man is now my man again, he parrotted back to me ALL my affirmations I had for SP towards me. He cleans my house, vacuums, mops, buys me stuff he sees I need, makes my bed every morning (he works afternoon shifts), he repeatedly tells me to save his pincode from his phone 'in case I need anything'. He wants to marry me, build life. He is CALM, kind, caring, playfull, sexy (broad chest, big arms) I am digging his energy. And 3 years ago, I didn't see all of this in him, partially because I used to live at home still, partially because I was incapable mentally.
I felt myself falling for him. So concious, so calm, so deep, and everyday it feels like I am falling more and more in love with him.
So what if you realized, you always were worthy, you ARE love, you are whole and complete, you are PURE PERFECTION, and whatever 'made sp leave you' isn't to do with you. Give it all to yourself. What if you can stop the trying, techniques, wanting?
What if you realized it always had already lived inside you and you just had to realize?
I spent a good amount of weeks in bliss, gratitude, joy, love. I always had an inner knowing about my sp. And though that didn't leave, I am HOME. Not because my man is back, but because I created the HOME within me, I fell in love with my life and he came as a cherry on top. Not to validate, but to complete me.