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I don’t really know why I’m writing this. Maybe I just need someone to listen because I don’t have anyone I can truly talk to.
My life feels miserable right now.
My family and I are financially dependent on our relatives. Every single expense has to be approved by them. Whether it’s university fees, groceries, or anything else, we have to ask. They decided to support my education because they believe that one day I’ll graduate, earn enough to stand on my own feet, and take care of my family—especially my sister, who was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2022.
I’m grateful for everything they’ve done. They provide us with many of the things we need, and I don’t deny that. But being completely dependent on someone else’s money comes with a price. Since they are the ones earning, we have to live by their rules. We have to stay quiet, be patient, and accept whatever is said, even when it hurts. Sometimes it feels like we don’t have the right to express our feelings because we’re afraid of being seen as ungrateful.
The hardest part is remembering what life used to be.
Six years ago, we were financially independent. We lived in Saudi Arabia, paid our own bills, and handled our own responsibilities. My sister wasn’t ill, and life felt normal. I never imagined everything could fall apart so quickly.
Now I’m studying for a BS in Accounting and Finance. I have registered for a summer course that I must pass before moving on to my final year. The problem is that I have absolutely no idea how I’m going to pay for it.
The course fee is PKR 27,740, but my part-time job only pays PKR 15,000 a month. Even if I spent my entire salary on tuition, it still wouldn’t be enough. There would be nothing left for transportation, food, or anything else.
I asked my relatives if they could help me just this once, but instead I was told, “You should have passed the course the first time.” Then they said, “You earn money now. Pay for it yourself.”
Those words broke me.
I know I made mistakes. I know I should have passed. I already carry that guilt every single day. But hearing those words when I’m trying so hard to finish my degree made me feel like all my efforts meant nothing.
I work while studying because I don’t want to depend on anyone forever. My only goal is to graduate, find a stable job, support my family, and make sure my sister gets the care she deserves. Yet every step forward feels like another wall is placed in front of me.
Sometimes I lie awake wondering if I’ll ever escape this cycle. It feels like no matter how hard I try, something else goes wrong. Every time I think I’m getting closer to building a better future, financial problems pull me back to where I started.
I’m exhausted—not just physically, but mentally. Living with constant uncertainty, worrying about money every day, watching someone you love struggle with a serious mental illness, and feeling powerless to change any of it… it’s a kind of pain that’s difficult to put into words.
I don’t know what I’m expecting by posting this. Maybe I just needed to let it out. Maybe I just want to know if anyone else has ever felt trapped like this, where you’re trying your hardest to move forward, but life keeps reminding you how little control you actually have.

Hi everyone,
I just needed a place to vent because I honestly feel like I’m drowning, and I wanted to know if anyone else has gone through something similar.
My sister was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2022. Before that, she never had serious anger issues, but after her diagnosis, everything changed. Over the past few years, life has become incredibly difficult for my family and me.
I come from a middle-class family, and we’re financially dependent on our relatives. I was born and raised in Saudi Arabia, but I moved to Pakistan to continue my education. I completed my A Levels here and now have just one year left before graduating from university.
The hardest part is living with my sister’s illness. She becomes extremely upset if her belongings aren’t arranged exactly the way she wants them or if someone forgets something she considers important. During those moments, she can become very angry, and arguments and accusations follow. I know it’s because of her illness, and I don’t blame her, but living through it every day is emotionally exhausting.
We also live in a rented house, which makes everything even harder. Whenever she has an episode, the noise disturbs the neighbors and the landlord. We’ve been threatened with eviction multiple times because of it. Living with the constant fear of losing our home has become a nightmare.
My biggest goal now is to finish my degree, move abroad, build a stable career, and one day buy a home for my family. I don’t dream of luxury anymore. I just want a place where we can live in peace without worrying about being forced to move again.
Honestly, this is a life I never imagined, not even in my worst thoughts. Some days I feel completely hopeless, but I keep reminding myself that I have to stay strong for my family.
Has anyone here experienced something similar—either living with a family member who has schizophrenia or dealing with the challenges that come with it? How did you cope?
If nothing else, I would really appreciate your prayers. I hope one day my sister finds peace, my family finds stability, and we can finally have a home where we don’t have to live in constant fear.
Thank you for reading.

Hi everyone,
I just needed a place to vent because I honestly feel like I’m drowning, and I wanted to know if anyone else has gone through something similar.
My sister was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2022. Before that, she never had serious anger issues, but after her diagnosis, everything changed. Over the past few years, life has become incredibly difficult for my family and me.
I come from a middle-class family, and we’re financially dependent on our relatives. I was born and raised in Saudi Arabia, but I moved to Pakistan to continue my education. I completed my A Levels here and now have just one year left before graduating from university.
The hardest part is living with my sister’s illness. She becomes extremely upset if her belongings aren’t arranged exactly the way she wants them or if someone forgets something she considers important. During those moments, she can become very angry, and arguments and accusations follow. I know it’s because of her illness, and I don’t blame her, but living through it every day is emotionally exhausting.
We also live in a rented house, which makes everything even harder. Whenever she has an episode, the noise disturbs the neighbors and the landlord. We’ve been threatened with eviction multiple times because of it. Living with the constant fear of losing our home has become a nightmare.
My biggest goal now is to finish my degree, move abroad, build a stable career, and one day buy a home for my family. I don’t dream of luxury anymore. I just want a place where we can live in peace without worrying about being forced to move again.
Honestly, this is a life I never imagined, not even in my worst thoughts. Some days I feel completely hopeless, but I keep reminding myself that I have to stay strong for my family.
Has anyone here experienced something similar—either living with a family member who has schizophrenia or dealing with the challenges that come with it? How did you cope?
If nothing else, I would really appreciate your prayers. I hope one day my sister finds peace, my family finds stability, and we can finally have a home where we don’t have to live in constant fear.
Thank you for reading.