Burnout/Wanting to Give Up
Hello, I am a 27M whose wants to give up on everything. On the outside, you think I have a perfect life being being married and having two young daughters, a profession where I get summers off, and able to living somewhat comfortably. But I'm starting to feel burned out on everything as I almost have to do everything for my family. I manage the bills, clean the house, do the laundry, track the maintenance of our vehicles, and other odd occurrences. I understand by having summers off due to being a teacher, my workload is uneven by taking care of the girls while managing everything else, but the workload is too much. I should be able to talk with my wife about this, but i fear it would turn into about how ungrateful I am watching the girls, i don't work 8-5, and I don't make enough for her to be a housewife.
This stress has caused me to not confide with my wife about these feelings and suicidal thoughts are becoming more frequent than they have ever before. To the point, where the thought of ending it would be better for everyone. A lot of my old de-stresser don't work anymore and doomscrolling does absolutely nothing. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
TL;DR husband/father is starting to feel burned out to the point of suicidal thoughts. Fears wife will not truly listen to him if they talk.