u/Gaudetst

Hi, I'm looking for a book series I read about 10ish years ago. I'm not sure if it had just come out around then or if it was before. I do believe it was a YA series. The story starts where the main female character is living under water, in a civilization that abandoned the surface and was advanced. She leaves for some reason, and to leave and go to the surface the person must "give up something valuable" to someone at an outpost, and the main character loses their tongue in the exchange. I don't remember a whole lot else, but I know she goes to the surface and meets a group of people who she works with to stop some bad people who are controlling the surfacers. In the end I do believe she dies sacrificing herself for her friends.

In case anyone asks, it's not the series that starts with 'Above Water' or 'Dark Life', I've checked that series and it's definitely not those.

So my mom and I have always had a hot and cold relationship, because she is always attacking me for very little things, then twisting it to somehow make it my fault. I could truly go on for pages and pages of the things she's done in my life that have left me crying, heartbroken, angry, or frustrated.

But basically, last week, we were getting ready to mail something out for her, I had had the envelope, and filled out my portion, and when I brought it, and said the hotel receipt wasn't in the envelope so she must have had it, instead of looking for it, she started yelling at me and accusing me of losing it. She demanded I go home and go check for it because there's *no* way she had it. So I left, as she's still yelling at me from the deck. I am pulling into the parking lot of my place, and I get a text from her saying she found it. Because of course she did.

When I got back there to get the receipt from her, I said, "I think I deserve an apology" she snapped back with "what?" before I explained that before she even tried to look, she blamed me, and yelled at me (also swearing) and was just straight up mean. Before I even finished talking, she reacted, she told me to fuck off, started yelling I don't even know what else before she said "you never apologize for your behaviour so why should I?" I didn't even respond at that point, I was already almost to my car. But besides the point, isn't the parent supposed to be better and show their child what the appropriate thing to do is? Not act like a child and completely overreact.

Cut forward to a few days later, my bf and I were going out of town just for the day, I'm semi talking to my mom, still hoping for an apology, but when she learned where we were going, she asked if I could pick her up food from there. I will copy paste the entire conversation that followed.

Me: I still think before I do anything for you I should get an apology for your behavior this week. I asked for a deserved apology for you blaming me when you still had the receipt, and instead you told me to fuck off. Everyone I have told this to was shocked. My counsellor told me not to break this boundary until I get a deserved apology.

I'm still bringing you Danishes and pie, but I'm sorry, until you apologize and admit you were mean to me for no reason, I can't do you any favours.

My mom: ok don't bring me anything

Me: ok. You made your choice.

My mom: Yep I did now I will change a few things also

Me: All over an apology. It'd just be easier to apologize, I don't know why you can't even bother to apologize to your own daughter.I didn't do anything wrong, and you're punishing me.

My mom: You never apologize for your attitude lol and you ordered me to apologize to you lol anyway have a good life stop texting me

Me ok. You won't see wyatt ever again doing this. Remember that. Your own choice. Good bye.

I have not heard from her since then, that was Saturday. Yesterday I had a medical procedure that my mom had been concerned about, but she's too proud to message me again to even ask how it went.

At this point, I genuinely don't know when she'll talk to me, or if she will. Also her saying she will "change things" means she's going to change her will, cut me out of life insurance that she put me in, all things she would dangle over my head if I "gave her attitude" all the time. So at this point I don't even care, I'm tired of her holding it over my head to try and keep me from not speaking up when she treats me like crap.

So yeah, that's about it for now. I could make another post on other things she's done, I could also add an older post I made before, where it outlines how narcissistic she's been even since I was a kid. These things she's done has been happening my entire life, I just didn't realize a lot of it until I had my own son and realized I'd never treat him the way she's ever treated me.

Thanks for reading this far.