u/GaymerGirl42014

It's been 3 days since my wife passed away from sepsis and cardiogenic shock at the age of 43.

My in-laws told me I am family and always will be, then the morning after they started to pile pressure on me to resolve everything immediately. They wanted me to forge my wife signature to transfer vehicle title (I don't drive and there is no will). They convinced me to not pay rent so I could cover the cremation costs until my disability benefit came through. They went into our apartment and removed belongings, stating that people have grabby hands. Now they are talking about repairs made to the vehicle being something I am responsible for repaying them or I should give the vehicle to my father-in-law.

I am severely disabled, but to them it is just laziness, until my wife's brief illness I had only been able to leave the apartment 2 or 3 times a year. I having been running on pure adrenaline and fear in order to have left the apartment and they believe because I spent every day for a month at the hospital willing my wife to live, that means I am cured. Nothing could be further from the truth, my wife was my whole world, literally, I have no other family, only the one I married into for the past 17 years.

I don't have any valid ID because in order to renew that, I would have needed to have left the apartment and I couldn't. So, no ID, no apartment, no money, no transportation (I was going to transfer title to my sister-in-law, because that's what my wife wanted) and no support. My sister-in-law has offered to take me into their home, but I fear the mother-in-law and father-in-law would see it as her taking sides and I won't be responsible for breaking up the family my wife so dearly loved.

I have no where to go from here. A month ago I considered myself lucky with a strong support system, but it turns out I just had a good wife. Tomorrow I am going back to the almost empty apartment to wait to be evicted, and I'm looking at spending the rest of my life truly alone.

I'm sorry to dump all this here, but I don't have anyone or anywhere else anymore.

My wife had a heart attack, a widowmaker 28th March. She had a successful stent but was in an induced coma for 6 days because she contracted pneumonia and developed ARDS.

Today at her NP appointment, we were told they don't see her EF improving with medication because her BP isn't going to tolerate tritating her medication.

I have been down a Google rabbithole but all the data is mainly for people 70+. It felt like they were telling us there's no hope, but get an ICD and wait for the grim reaper. I need to hear some hope, has anyone else been in a similar position and had any improvement?