if i don’t, i will be punished. i can’t leave. i keep telling him i don’t want to do it but i don’t have a choice. i want to kill myself but i can’t because of my two babies. my life is hell
we’ve been married 10 years this year and we have two very small kids.
It’s been very death by a thousand cuts and now i’m at the point where i hate him with every fiber of my being.
I don’t know what makes me stay. I guess the unknown. I am a foreigner in his country and have no one here but his small family and my kids. I live in a major city which is very expensive so i’m so scared of being poor and struggling with two children and no support. I don’t know if I can take being with him for much longer. i wish i could just bite the bullet. he’s horrible.
Anyone deal with something similar or is it special to my narc husband?
It takes me a long time to drink something. It may take me hours to finish a can of redbull.. or he can knock back 3 beers to my one cocktail. Every single day he pressures me over finishing my drink. Constantly. “drink your drink” “finish your drink” “hurry up and drink that”
why tf does it matter?
he is severely abusive so maybe this is a stupid thing to even harp on in the grand scheme of it all.. but damn just let me drink at my own pace? so weird.