u/Gekido27

I'm 25M got diagnosed with depression and axiety since my 17's and I've never felt truly meaningful or happy in my life. Some months ago I lost my fiancée cause she couldn't deal with my sorry ass anymore and I don't blame her, because even thou I try to improve it's always a dead end. Recently my will to live is vanishing, I don't even want to get better anymore, so many pills and sessions and money getting wasted on a ghost, I know I'm a burden to all and just want to be erased from existence. If there's a way out of this, it's probably hidden from me...