Am I...Gross? (Nsfw)
So I know the title sound strange obviously but I am really kind of contemplating with myself about this
So I am a young what I would consider, trans fem and today for the very first time I got full fem and went on a walk, it wasn't anything crazy it was women's jeans, a cropped t shirt and a cropped sweater thing and makeup, it was cute and I felt really comfortable and happy and uncomfortable at the same time but yk that's just kind of euphoria for me
So yk I was just looking at myself or walking and I got...excited? And like I was ignoring it but then I got really excited and I'm really embarrassed and grossed out by myself like ik it's supposed to be a myth but I can like only relate it to agp shit yk?
I have dysphoria and gender envy and euphoria and all of that but I just subconsciously get exited ig with myself specifically? I was very normally excited and happy and scared just going on a walk like that but I feel this is weird and I just want opinions...help?
I'm so sorry if this is too weird or inappropriate for this sub
(Edit) Thank you, even with the few comments I have felt much better and a little less ashamed, I'm mainly glad I was faced with kindness rather than being condemned like I expected lol
Also on a fun note or funny, while i was walking home from that within one minute I got what I believe was cat called twice, peak euphoria right there unfortunately 😭