Can someone help me understand, is this anima?
I'm just going to talk a little about myself.
When I was a young teen, I was suicidal one day, and a girl in my head talked to me and helped me realize I needed to live. Her name is Versa (as in vice-versa). She's the part of me that moves when I need to move, I grew up in a violent environment and so I think she's where my survival instincts live, me as I normally am, I don't protect myself well. She kind of faded but I gave her the names for my female avatars in games and such over the years, just to honor her. Fastforward, in my 20s I meet a girl I really like, and that lasts 10 years. We got married and everything. I'm newly divorced now, but during the marriage, I started writing. I've always been a creative person and I used to write fanfiction, but original work was hard. But I started, and at some point I realized that my writing was trying to tell me something important about the relationship. That it wasn't healthy for me. And as I wrote more and tried to isolate this part of myself that was telling me this, I found Versa again. I have certain things I can do now to call her up, it's not like she's here all the time. But essentially, "me" as I am normally had habits that were self-erasing. And the more I called up Versa, the more she would challenge me on those things. I have a writing friend who interacts with her as well, we've gotten close in the recent months. And in that space, Versa is visible to her too. And I went to her and asked her something I was struggling with, and she essentially talked to Versa in such a way that I was forced to acknowledge a deep inconsistency in my behavior. And after that happened, I kind of felt like a whole person. I've given myself a new name, and who I am now feels like I've integrated Versa, or I'm at least holding her as I move through life.
I'm just coming here because I was telling someone and they said it sounded like an anima thing and I wanted to know if that's true and what... idk. I'm new to talking about this. I'm going to be going to therapy later this month to work on it.