u/GenuineTomfoolery

I started a school counseling internship in January. I did my internship at a school that has a school counseling position open. I have since completed my internship and graduated; however, I was hired through a third party as a Building Substitute, meaning I can continue working in the school counseling role until it is filled.

I was advised to apply for this opening before I graduated, since I was able to. So, I applied as soon as possible, which was about 3 months ago.

I didn't hear anything until about 3 weeks ago, when the principal asked if I had withdrawn my application. I said that I had not, and she said, "Oh, good. I was hoping you didn't." She let it slip that she hadn't actually looked at my application, yet.

After confirming that she still had access to my application, I thought that things would get rolling; however, I just looked, and my application still says "submitted," as opposed to "in progress." This means she still has not even opened it. I tried following up, but I have yet to hear a response.

I am so confused. They told me all the time how they are so desperate to get another counselor, but they haven't even looked at my application. Are they using me because it is cheaper and I am already there? Do you think they are unimpressed with my work, and they are waiting for someone else to apply? I am just frustrated because I am doing the work of a school counselor, but I get paid as a sub (also, no benefits).

I have already applied to other jobs (and have gotten a few interviews). I feel awful because it seems to be accepted throughout the school that I will get this counseling job. Any advice would be helpful.

Edit: A couple of people have mentioned it already, but they do not seem to be waiting until the summer to hire. They have invited 2 people to an interview for the job. Neither showed up to their interview.

I made a post a few days ago about my boy, Roscoe, who passed away at 17. He passed about 4 days ago, and I have been an absolute wreck ever since. I can't stop thinking about him, even while I dream. The whole death/burying him in our yard has been very traumatic for me.

It has started to impact my sleep, work, and leisure. I made an appointment with my therapist, but it won't be for another 2 weeks. How do I get through things during that time? Everything just feels so hard right now.

My dog Roscoe was nearly 17. He had been struggling for a while, but nothing too bad.

We got him when I was 10 years old. He quickly became my best friend. He always did my paper route with me, it was his favorite thing. We shared food all the time. He was always so excited to see me when I got home.

As he got older, he had a harder time walking, but he always made it to greet me at the door.

Yesterday, he started having seizures. We only know of two, but we are pretty sure he had more while we were gone. He fell really hard during one and hurt his shoulder. The sound of pain he made is something I will never forget. We decided we had to put him down. He was just in so much pain.

When I got home today, it felt so empty to not see him hobbling toward me at the front door.

When I was preparing my food, the kitchen felt so empty without him there begging for some.

When we were watching TV, the living room felt so empty without him on his bed.

I'm such a wreck. We grew up together, and now he's just in the dirt. I feel so guilty. I love him. He was my baby boy. I'm not sure what to do without him.