u/GeologistPlastic4916

Hi everyone, I wanted to share my distress.

I'm an 26 yo man and I’ve been suffering from a sex addiction for as long as I can remember. When I was 9 years old, my uncle abused me — he touched my intimate parts — and I feel like that’s when I became addicted to porn, and later to sex as an adult.

I’ve never had a girlfriend. Every time an emotional connection starts to form with a woman, I can’t make love anymore because I get erectile dysfunction. I’ve been seeing prostitutes since I was 20.

I’ve never loved myself. I’ve always thought I was a piece of shit, incapable of doing anything, and especially incapable of being good enough for all the great women who showed interest and cared for me.

I’ve read a lot of testimonies from adults who were abused as children, and many of them share the same suicidal feelings. Sometimes I feel like killing myself for no reason — I just don’t feel okay.

I wanted to know if any of you share the same experience.

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