I’m about to graduate within 2 weeks, and I’ve had a really great and fun month. Maybe the happiest and most stress free I’ve been in a long time. But, I still want to die. I don’t know why but I still feel like this way and I know this feeling will probably never go away. Is it possible for these thoughts to ever leave or am I just stuck with passive suicidal ideation.
I am still so shocked I have made it this far. I’ve been depressed for as long as I could remember and have been struggling with suicidal thoughts throughout highschool, and in just one month I am about to graduate. I’ve been surrounding myself more with my friends and family and have been avoiding self isolation as much as I can to help my mental health. It still feels a bit off to me, feeling this happy and free. I do still think about offing myself on the regular, but I am starting to look a bit more hopeful for the future.