68 blown Lucid futures accounts. I have a strategy and some payouts. What am I doing wrong mentally?
Hello, I need honest advice, not sugarcoating.
I've been prop trading futures (mainly NQ/ES) on Lucid for a while now. I do have a defined strategy, I understand market structure, and I've actually hit some payouts — so I know the edge is there.
But I've blown 68 accounts. That number hurts to type.
Here's what keeps killing me:
Revenge trading** – I take a loss, I know I should stop, and I immediately re-enter trying to "get it back." Every. Single. Time.
Hyperconfidence** – After a good run I feel untouchable. I size up, I skip confirmations, I treat the market like it owes me something.
The payout trap** – This is the big one. I lose accounts most often when I'm *right on the edge of a payout*. I get tight, I start protecting instead of executing, or I flip the other way and rush to lock it in. Either way, I sabotage myself.
For anyone who's been through this — how did you actually fix it? Not "just follow your rules" advice. Real stuff. Did you journal? Did you reduce size after every loss? Did you literally close the platform and walk away?
How do you trade the same way whether you're up 5% or one trade away from a payout?
Any advice appreciated.