u/Gilder87

Just wanted to share a few pics. Hope everyone is having a great weekend :3

My life was a rough one. I always knew i was different but never knew why. At some point in my mid twenties i got depressions and gained a lot of weight up to 125 kg / 275 lbs. I dont know if it was really living. It felt like being on an auto pilot and feeling only the bare minimum. At some point i at least wanted to lose weight again and lost around 35 kg / 77 lbs. I also had my eyes lasered and didnt need the glasses anymore. Still took me another 7 years to realize i am trans and start my transition with 37 years. Before HRT i lost more weight and went down to 80 kg / 176 lbs. I have been on HRT for 17 months now. When HRT did its thing i slowly gained some weight back to get the fat to the right places and am at 90 kg / 198 lbs and try to stay around that weight.

I finally learned to love myself and feel at peace with myself for the first time in my life. It is still a long journey ahead but it is the first time i am actually looking forward for what is ahead ☺️

I guess there may have been some slight changes in those 10 years. Glad i finally found myself

Maya (39) here. Before my transition i never cared about clothes. I honestly didnt care about how i look at all. But now i just enjoy trying out different styles and wearing all kind of clothes. I probably bought more clothes in the last 1,5 years than in my whole life before. I love what HRT gave me and i prefer wearing some more revealing clothes. It is just wonderful to finally feel good in my own body ☺️

Maya, 39 here. I started HRT in february 2025. It has been a crazy time. In the last few months i fought a lot with anxiety and depressions. I finally feel better and start to recover. In march i had my orchiectomy amd i am looking forward to SRS in 2027. I feel like HRT was even nicer to me after my orchiectomy and i am very happy i started this journey 😊

Maya (39) from germany here. It is very warm here in germany so i thought i could try on one of the tanktops i didnt wear for a while again. Definitely feels euphoric to see the difference ☺️

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I also recently got my third tattoo that i wanted to get after i recovered from my orchiectomy. Love my new Yggdrasil tattoo ☺️

Maya (39) from germany here. I planned on getting this tattoo for a while and wanted to get it done after i recovered from my orchiectomy. Yesterday i got it done. I wanted to get a tattoo of the world tree yggdrasil but in a feminine style. I used that name as my nickname for half of my life. I think the symbolism of life, death and rebirth fits perfectly. My old self lived a long sad life and finally died to be reborn as my true self. With the majority of my T production gone there is no going back. This gives me a lot of peace of mind. Hopefully i will be able to take the next step next year and SRS done ☺️

Maya (39) from germany here. It is finally getting warm enough to wear some cute summer outfits. After being on HRT for almost 15 months i feel really good about my body. It feels so affirming to go out like this. I had five sessions of laser on my legs and i barely need to worry about shaving them anymore. It feels very liberating to shake off the dysphoria about my legs. I love being able to wear things that actually show what has become of my body. It is an amazing feeling to finally feel happy about myself ☺️

Maya (38) here. I had my orchiectomy one month ago. That is my first big step behind me. I am still healing but overall it went way better than i expected. I had a few issues with my hormones and mood swings in the first weeks but it normalized again. I am now 14,5 months on HRT and didnt expect the changes i got so far. I will probably have SRS next year. That will be another big step. This journey is definitely worth it. It is not always easy but i am way more happy than every before 😊