Sappy post lol- did anyone else experience a bit of healing through motherhood?
I don’t want to turn this post into trauma dumping, I actually wanted to focus on something positive that happened and I noticed within myself.
Everyone has their baggage, and I most certainly don’t recommend giving birth to an entire human just to heal yourself, but I had some holes in my heart that have felt a bit less empty since starting this motherhood journey.
My four, soon the be five next week, year old, came into my bedroom after I put her to bed the other night and she was postponing bedtime by asking me some deep and thoughtful questions. Honestly, she was fishing for compliments the little bugger, and at some point she got me to say that my heart was split into four equal pieces: one for dad, one for her, and one each for her sisters. She was asking who I loved the most! What a question.
And when I said that, she shot back, “what about you?” And I’ve been thinking about that question ever since. Sometimes I hide in the bathroom and have a good old fashioned cry. She’s so right, what about me?