When to give up on a mission?
I have written here before, but I am now almost 8 months into an SP mission. This was some months ago https://www.reddit.com/r/JosephMurphy/s/7DeaNOvK7v
By now, I should have probably finished but things took a weird turn. Not to explain things too much but with this SP we were almost together last year, I had to leave the country for some months, things started being shaky and the whole thing was very up and down. I knew he stopped being emotionally available but thought it was for different reasons (fears of commitment, me not being from his country bla bla, all what I was programming to change for this time). Now I came back and things didn’t progress in any way. I was doing the programming for us to be in a relationship this whole time - and the initial situation in november when I started was objectively really good in comparison to other SP stories.
Lately I have been really focused on the programming, my sessions felt much better and I started to feel this sense of peace in regards to the whole situation and even the doubts I had all this time started subsiding - I even said to him that he shouldn’t contact me until he realizes what he wants from me. Because the situation is how it is for months, I decided to really give the programming my best (I evaluated my past practice and was genuinely improving the techniques).
Yesterday we finally decided to see each other and speak but he ended it. It took a weird turn when he revealed some information I never knew about before (that he didn’t move on from some ex years ago and although he still has feelings for me he has to let me go because he can’t deal with it). This deep into the programming I didn’t expect this at all.
This seems like some weird glitch - I never knew about any of this but apparently it was a thing that he only decided to reveal now hence ending it to be fair. I’m at crossroads - I want to finish the programming and I really wanted this relationship but now this just feels too much and too weird in regards to circumstances after programming for so long. I have been doing the work for 8 months now and thought I really wanted this person but after this it feels like it doesn’t make sense.
Regarding the timeline and events unfolding, should I keep pushing through or is it safe to say this is a failed mission?