r/JosephMurphy

I have written here before, but I am now almost 8 months into an SP mission. This was some months ago https://www.reddit.com/r/JosephMurphy/s/7DeaNOvK7v

By now, I should have probably finished but things took a weird turn. Not to explain things too much but with this SP we were almost together last year, I had to leave the country for some months, things started being shaky and the whole thing was very up and down. I knew he stopped being emotionally available but thought it was for different reasons (fears of commitment, me not being from his country bla bla, all what I was programming to change for this time). Now I came back and things didn’t progress in any way. I was doing the programming for us to be in a relationship this whole time - and the initial situation in november when I started was objectively really good in comparison to other SP stories.

Lately I have been really focused on the programming, my sessions felt much better and I started to feel this sense of peace in regards to the whole situation and even the doubts I had all this time started subsiding - I even said to him that he shouldn’t contact me until he realizes what he wants from me. Because the situation is how it is for months, I decided to really give the programming my best (I evaluated my past practice and was genuinely improving the techniques).

Yesterday we finally decided to see each other and speak but he ended it. It took a weird turn when he revealed some information I never knew about before (that he didn’t move on from some ex years ago and although he still has feelings for me he has to let me go because he can’t deal with it). This deep into the programming I didn’t expect this at all.

This seems like some weird glitch - I never knew about any of this but apparently it was a thing that he only decided to reveal now hence ending it to be fair. I’m at crossroads - I want to finish the programming and I really wanted this relationship but now this just feels too much and too weird in regards to circumstances after programming for so long. I have been doing the work for 8 months now and thought I really wanted this person but after this it feels like it doesn’t make sense.

Regarding the timeline and events unfolding, should I keep pushing through or is it safe to say this is a failed mission?

Guys I need some massive clarity in terms of a few concepts. I am not able to let go of my desperate energy. Even while doing affirmations I feel that I am doing that from desperate energy. I visualise but then after the session I am back to sad and desperate. I don’t know how to let go of this feeling.

Honestly I have manifested some really grand things but I was not very specific about them. For example I wanted to work for a big brand in the country and I wanted to have a job which would allow me to travel and also pay for my travel. I landed such job with super ease. And all I did was tell myself - I am gonna work for a big brand some day.

But now with the person I want to be with, I am experiencing hot and cold behaviour, inconsistency in communication, not even In a relationship till now even though he has told me his feelings for me. I am clueless how to change my story and how to be persistent without being desperate.

Please someone help me. Please hit me up in DMs

I’ve been working on affirmations and visualizations for awhile now in regards to a specific issue in the 3D. I woke up early this morning and spent about an hour or more really focusing on SATS. Lots of visualization and affirming and I was drifting in and out of sleep with some dreams that I can’t remember but they were good. I woke up and briefly felt so happy… happier than I’ve felt in over four years when my issues in the 3D began, which are health related.

The feeling didn’t last long as I realized I was back in reality and wanted to just stay in my imagination. But it was the first time I felt my imagination being real and I recognized that it’s all my imagination… I just want the reality I had in my imagination to be my current 3D reality. I am suffering a lot in the 3D (and yes I know that’s an affirmation and I need to be careful!).

I know there’s no speeding things up and they happen in their own time, but man it makes the longing for that reality even stronger. I’m hoping I’m on to something now though and if I keep it up every night getting into a state like that it will eventually become my 3D.

Anybody else with a similar experience? How long did it take to manifest once you got into a good rhythm with visualizations like this?

I went online to listen to the audiobook from my local library and there were so many different additions. Some were five or six hours somewhere 11 or 12 hours. What’s the difference between them? I was wondering if this sub had any guidance or specific recommended version or edition, audiobook or otherwise. Thanks in advance.