I’m starting to realize I’ve never really binged I just purged. Like anything I but into my mouth wether it was a salad, granola bar, or “balanced meal”. I just always ended up purging. But I don’t think I’ve ever really binged so do I still have bulimia?
Content warning in cause I trigger anyone I know how bad diet comparison is.
Right now I’m on a very restrictive diet of only eating less than 800 calories and I don’t see myself stopping on my own. I need like some scary statistics, or some tips that I can get to stop. Because I know when I inevitably fail this impossible diet I’m gonna go on a really bad b/p cycle. So I’m desperate for any advice or tips or other coping mechanisms.
Your finale breath
Your finale step
You take it all in
One last time
Before you die
Before you jump
Before the rope that unravels
Weaved from your tears
And your memories
You think back one last time
And you jump from the sadness life has dealt
All the things you felt
Was it worth?
You can’t even answer
Because it is the finale
Of all that you are and will ever be
It ends with this
The jump, the rope, the knife.
Or is it the landing, the fall, or the slice?
You don’t have enough time to think anyway.
Because this is the finale
Your finale
Was it worth it?
You have no idea.
Because you are no longer.