Support Person of Someone Living with an Eating Disorder
I am *so* tired. It's been about two years now, a little less I think. I've been caring for my fiancée since she was diagnosed with Atypical Anorexia. No one had to ask of course, how could I say no? I agreed to everything because I love her more than anything on Earth. But I'm struggling to keep going now.
Every day there's another instance of her refusing to eat, or forcing herself to throw up (they call it purging), or talking about suicide. I always knew it would be a lot of work over a lot of time, I guess I just didn't realise how much.
I can't talk about this with her and it takes a lot to hold my tongue sometimes, but I'm seriously losing the will to keep going. I'm a Lifestyle Therapist helping elderly folks through dementia and PTSD. Then I get home and I feel like I'm still a therapist. I don't remember the last time I even had a break.
I'm not going to give up, I couldn't even if I wanted to, I love her too much. I just don't know how much I have left in me and I can't give up because it would effect her. Feels like an impossible situation.