u/Glass_Ad9781

I’ve been ultra racing for 6 years now and in my time, I’ve managed to optimize my weekly nutrition to improve digestion and to process carbs and fats better on and off running. I don’t typically eat sweets and will only really touch them around running efforts.

Over the weekend, I ran a 50 mile training race to prep for next months 100 miler. I brought all of my usual race fuel, but couldn’t force myself to eat. Nothing sounded appetizing and even eating my favorite peanut butter m&ms felt like a chore! My body really only wanted fruit.

Help! What are some non-sweet real food options that work well for racing?

I came off of the run craving proteins and fats. My taste buds were fatigued and I couldn’t taste for over a day, but richness like gelato and ice cream were enjoyable even without a true taste. I have 5 weeks to figure out a plan. Any and all suggestions are greatly appreciated!

Dear Kamu,

I’ve watched the exit interviews, I’ve noticed your natural charm, and I see your desire to rewrite what we have all witnessed. Your words and delivery continue to reek of misogyny, homophobia (and transphobia) and overall bigotry.

Telling a woman that you’ll get her pregnant “like it or not” is not a joke. Nobody thinks this is funny. It is predatory and using the statement “like it or not” implies rape. Melody’s feelings are valid and should never be brushed under the rug or discredited.

Also, you were asked by multiple people about the “miss me with the drag comment” after Drew dressed in unicorn pajamas. Why was your response directed at Jason? Your comments were made at Drew. Do you think Jason forced Drew and Barrett to wear dresses to the tea party? And why did you say to respect your decision not to wear drag? Did Jason ask you to join in??

As far as I’ve seen, Jason did not join in Drew or Barrett wearing women’s clothes. He was in fact nowhere involved. Did he even so much as help the girlies with their makeup?!! Jason did not dress in drag and he did not attempt to force drag on a single person so I ask again, why did you start your response with “I love Jason” when it was in fact Drew and Barrett who were involved in the incident that you made the comment about??

Preaching about your religion does not make you a good person. I hope you take this opportunity to open your eyes and ear, make real change to correct your hate, and THEN apologize once you’ve found true growth. Cuz what we saw in the house and now out of it is ugly.

Women are allowed to work and be moms. She works hard to be able to afford her and Gemma’s life. Thinking that she can’t play the mom card because she has a nanny helping her is a misogynistic take implying that women need to be always available in the mom role and that having a nanny is her “break”. Having a nanny, especially living in NYC is expensive. Lindsay grinds. Let’s not minimize her as a mom because she has a nanny. Please do better, Whitney. K thanks.

I dream about them often. Some days I wake up knowing they came to me in my dreams, but I don’t remember it. Last night, it was very vivid.

They returned home for the summer. They moved across the country to go to school later in life this past year. They felt as if they didn’t have a direction in life and when we entered our relationship, they felt that they were inadequate because I was successful and secure in my life. I told them to take the time to figure out their path in life and I would love and support them every step of the way. This pushed them away.

In the dream, they were back. We were out with friends near the ballpark where I live, the place where they were preparing to move to before they started running. They had fully integrated with my friends, mentioning how grateful they were for every friend of mine as they helped throughout the summer. My TF would laugh with the group, but wouldn’t interact with me or look in my direction despite being in a small group. They started saying goodbye, preparing to return to school, and hugged or kissed the cheek of every person in the group, and then tapped my arm. I asked “no hug?” They looked at me with pain and sadness in their eyes, but couldn’t say a word.

I’ve had the feeling for the last few months that they are still in a somber place. They blocked me. They told me that they would find a reason to not go to school if we were still in each other’s lives, then looked for the first excuse to block me, but I have my ways of still seeing some public stuff. They’ve posted cryptic posts of things only the two of us would know or recognize, things about our first date, wearing things that I let them borrow of mine or doing things that I taught them. There’s also a burner account with zero followers, zero following, zero posts that views my stories consistently, coinciding with when my TF posts.

The dream last night gave me some validation. I’ve always known that this isn’t about me. I’ve known that they are trying to stay in my life and stay close without getting too close. There’s still an intense pull and a longing for our relationship, but they don’t trust themself.

To my TF: I still see you and I still love you unconditionally, with everything I am. I’m going to continue to respect that boundaries you set. The door is open when you’re ready. I’m going to continue to send love and support into our bond and will continue to build my life if/ when you’re ready to return to it.