Was it CSA or am I just overreacting
Hi
I’m not really sure how to begin this but wtv (tw:sh)
So when I was younger (11yrs) I used to sh because someone(I can’t bring myself to write who) was like touching me and stuff and it lasted a few years and I used to have sleep paralysis and insomnia and stuff like that. I was overall really scared and uncomfortable at that time.
Few years after that the person is not longer in the picture but I have begun to really question what happened mostly because I forgot almost everything and the few things I remember are stuff I asked an older friend about at the very beginning of everything cuz I wasn’t sure what they meant.
So I’m gonna describe what I remember and can u please tell me if it’s normal and I was just overreacting from the beginning
-lots of neck kissing in private
-he lay on top of me while I was face down and then puts his hands underneath and squeezed my chest
-ok this one I don’t remember the context but basically he was pushing me to the bed and trying to unbutton my pants but he was also laughing and Idk why (it was in my room and somebody was passing by and stopped him and locked me in my room)
-he used to ask me to sleep next to him a looot and when I did he used to massage my back which is totally normal but also play with my bra and asks me to make strange noises (someone heard them once and told me to stop but I didn’t understand at the time why it was wrong and didn’t tell them that he asked me to do it)
-he used to look at me while I’m changing my clothes and enter the bathroom when I’m taking a bath and just sit there asking what I’m doing
-he also used to caress my tights (?) but once while he was grabbing my fists while tickling and stuff I told him to stop cuz It was really hurting me and he just laughed and said that I was too young to be making decisions and I remember feeling so weak
I apologise if this is a bit too long and if it’s stupid and I really was just overreacting.
Also my memory is really blurry and those are the few things I’m sure of