u/Glittering-Bee4615

I have ADHD and social anxiety and have been on generic Vyvanse for a month. While its effects are short lived for me (about 4 hours) it also decreases my anxiety and makes me more talkative. However I noticed it also removes my filter and I don’t think through what I’m about to say.

This is good for my anxiety but also means when it wears off I cringe SO HARD at things I did or said. Not crazy things, but stuff such as rambling a bit too much about something I’m passionate about in a conversation (this was a convo with an important person so I should have kept the focus on them). Or being the only one to use a sharpie to write my name on my drink at a work party. Or asking pointless questions just to say something.

I’m not sure in retrospect if my actions are actually embarrassing and the Vyvanse makes it not so in the moment, or if they are completely fine and the Vyvanse wearing off makes my “social anxiety brain” come back like a truck and I start regretting everything.

Does anyone else have experience with this or what to do? In the moment I don’t see it happening so I don’t know how to prevent it. I love not having the anxiety but hate it being worse when meds wear off since I now have actions to cringe about rather than before when I would overthink everything and stay silent so I didn’t really have any social regrets besides “I should have talked more” and that was it.

I somehow got a job in a field where I need to make connections with important and sometimes quite rich people in the community. I’m struggling immensely as I can hardly hold a conversation with my coworkers.

I’m in the beginning stages of working with a psychologist on social anxiety, but face anxiety when going into work since I think my boss is regretting hiring me now that he sees my lack of people skills, and also that any work I put effort into is being judged since I’m not confident in it. I don’t have to socialize face to face with people every day except for my coworkers, and I can’t even make a phone call in the office when others can hear me.

Has anyone else gone through this and offer any advice? I do like the job in general compared to other jobs and I want to get better but the anxiety is making me burn out now. I at least want to go into the office and have a coworker chat with me and not be stammering and talking face and using filler words and making no sense because I’m so anxious.