Help with depression
Long-time lurker, and it’s been maybe 2 years or so since we stopped trying. I‘ve been struggling with depression for a while and trying to overcome it. Have been seeing a therapist for years, and started medication about a year ago. I struggled with side effects for months but they finally subsided. however, I don’t feel better, mostly just numb.
The past few months, I have been feeling awful. Tired all the time, no matter how much I sleep. Achy and feeling very foggy and forgetful. Can’t focus on reading or even TV. No appetite and forcing myself to eat at least one proper meal a day, but not enjoying it. No desire to go out, socialize, see people, etc. I get teary when people start to talk about their kids or even when I overhear strangers discussing kids. My husband knows how I feel but is at a loss to help me and I feel like I am trying to do all the things, but they are not working at all. More and more, I find myself not caring much about anything. I don’t even recognize the person I’ve become. On top of all this, weight gain (probably from the meds) and gray hair has done a number on my self esteem. I feel so ugly and insignificant as a person.
I hate this so much and not sure how to fix it. Has anyone else had a similar situation?