u/Glittering-Shame3566

I don’t even know how to word this properly. I always go through the same cycle of not answering to texts, “ghosting” the people in my life. I am physically present. I talk to my coworkers, my parents and my friends, but when it comes to texting I just can’t. The thing that gets to me is when people get mad at me for it. I hate that I’m expected to be always available to someone, and when I’m not people get mad at me. Why can’t I be on my own. I have lots of unopened texts as I’m typing this. Usually this feeling goes away after a few days and I get to catch up with everyone. But this time I’m 99% sure I’ve already lost a friend because of this. They brought up this issue and I decided to never respond. I just can’t. I hate when friends berate me for simply not wanting to participate. Let me be. Does any of this make sense?