hiiii! it’s me a 23 yr old newbie in the workforce as a cpa and working for a little over four months already. i took the boards last oct 2025 and had five job offers from the big five in makati yet decided to stay in the province for work.
if you would ask why, the answer is that my professor-then and my boss at the moment, offered me a job in their firm with the same rate in the big five (around 26k) while in the comfort of being near to my family. i also teach in his review center earning around 10k a month and also teach in the university where i graduated as a part-time faculty earning 15k a month. so as a fresh grad, i am really really content of my gross salary.
but, my fight or flight dilemma isn’t about my salary. it’s about the pressure i have to conquer day by day, the anxiety of seeing ms teams messages day in and day out, the overthinking spirals whenever i make mistakes kasi grabe ang expectations sa akin ng boss ko bcs of being an overachiever in college (graduated as batch valedictorian & great cpale performance). every time na nagkakamali ako sa work until now, i couldn’t help but feel so bad about myself kasi my boss has high expectations in me when my boss first offered me the job/s. but every time i mess up like simple errors or oversights, passive aggressive na siya lagi and i feel so disappointed sa sarili ko. lahat ng trabaho ko ngayon connected sakanya.
hindi na kaya ng well-being ko at mental health ko. i am not afraid of failures or learning from my mistakes and has the love for learning pero pano if constantly pinagduduhan ko sarili ko kasi may expectations na sila kaagad sa akin?
i am thinking quitting and finding job/s somewhere no one knows me idk. kinakain na ako ng expectations and pressure 🥺 help