u/GlitteringMobile8379

I want you to heal from all of your pain. From your abusive family situation, from your abusive and emotionally toxic exes. From yourself. You ended things with me out of nowhere and it felt like you were running away for reasons I couldn’t understand. Did it get too real with me? You couldn’t even tell me one specific thing that I’d done to make you want to run. I just wanted to love you and give you stability. But maybe somewhere deep inside, you were still hurting and it was just too much. So then you shut it off and left.
I’m still hurting and I miss you. I am so angry with how you left me. It hurts so much every day and I think about you every day. It makes me hate you a little bit, but I also feel sad for you at the same time. I wish so badly that I would just wake up to an apology from you. I miss you so much it hurts. It feels like there’s an emptiness in my life now. Come back to me. But maybe after you’ve healed. And after I’ve healed from you, too.

You really broke my heart. It’s been really difficult to heal from you, the way you blindsided and love bombed me. Our relationship was short but it was everything I wanted (or so I thought) and I thought you were happy too. It turns out that you had an entirely different view of our relationship. Why didn’t you tell me anything? Why did you not want to communicate about it and try to fix things? I’m still so confused. You didn’t even want to talk about it in the end. I felt like you suddenly discarded me like garbage. One day you were buying me dinner and telling me you loved me, the next day you throw me away without a reason that I could understand. I was devastated. I’m still sad about it. I thought you were my final love. At least, you made me feel that way. I’m trying to date again but with every failed date or subpar connection, I find myself thinking of you. And I hate you for that!! How could you do this to me?? How could you abandon me like that? I hate that you’ve broken my heart like this and I hate that you’ve forced me back into the dating pool again. This is not what I wanted. This is awful and I am struggling. I wish you would come back to me. I wish you would apologize and ask me to take you back. Part of me really wants you back, but the other part of me knows that you have too many emotional wounds from your past that probably need healing on your own. And another part of me wishes you would ask for me back, just so I can tell you these things in person and break your heart like you broke mine.
I hope you heal from everything you need healing from. I hope you heal far away from me. I wish I never met you. I miss you and it hurts.