My girlfriend put me in drag and now I’m contemplating everything
A couple of months ago, my girlfriend asked to do my makeup. Fine, no biggie. I’m confident enough in my masculinity to let her do it and I wanted to make her happy. We had been drinking a bit and she wanted to take it further and put me in full drag. I was apprehensive at first, but again, the drinks were flowing and I wanted to make her happy and she was laughing and having a good time so I ended up letting her do it. Now, I’ve always considered myself straight and never had interest in anything like this so that’s why what I’m about to say next has been confusing me so much.
When I saw myself in the mirror, (and I know this sounds weird) I felt something that I’ve never felt before. Not being able to recognize myself and see what (if I might say) is an attracted looking woman, blew my mind. I genuinely have not been able to stop thinking about it. She doesn’t know this, but after that night, I ordered wigs, makeup, clothes, pads, shoes, etc. I’ve become fascinated with drag. And I’ve gotten really good. I obviously didn’t tell her this, but I went to a bar in drag and had one of the most fun nights of my life. I have the itch to take my drag persona and explore a side of me I never knew even existed.
I don’t know how to tell her this, because I think I want to explore it more. It’s also led me to questioning things like my sexuality, which I can’t believe is happening, but it is. I don’t know if I should break up with her and explore this side of myself or keep all of it to myself and forget any of this ever happened. I don’t know how I’m supposed to tell her this all started because of her idea. I genuinely cannot believe I’m in a situation like this.