Over it. Being taken advantage of.
Its been approximately a little over 2.5 years since my injury. Some days i feel semi okay but i still get extreme waves of anxiety and depression.
I feel as if im not really taken seriously anymore and have lost my authority to speak up. Anytime i do speak up i made out to be in the wrong and all of a sudden theyre so offended.
Its very hard to find reliable caregivers that show up everyday when theyre supposed to. I try to be lenient and try not to mind if theyre late or cleaning isn’t done. But a lot of the times stuff isn’t getting done like organizing my room/laundry. Again i try not to mind but what do you do when you find out the reliable caregiver that has been showing up consistently and you highly rely on has been taking much more hours than they should have??
I guess i wouldn’t have minded but again things are not being done but yet i need them because i need help cathing in the morning and getting out of bed.
I hate this life ive been forced to live. Im trying so hard to be independent so i wont need them anymore but reality is i still need them. It saddens me and makes me very uncomfortable because even though i know theyre wrong i still need them and dont want them to be upset with me for being upset with them.. does that make sense? I don’t know im just worn out with people seeing me as someone that can so easily be taken advantage of.