My workplace is so toxic it’s keeping me up at night. I dread going in.
It’s horrific.
It’s a place with a lot of different cultures and languages. But I found they form their own cliques. The few of us who are English are made to feel absolutely worthless. The others look down on us and constantly talk in their own languages to each other, even when it’s work related issues that you should be involved in.
The upper managers talk down to you. It’s no nice “oh, perhaps you should be doing this”, it’s yelling, clapping after every word for emphasis, and completely blanking you.
There are no secrets. I had a personal issue which impacted work so I let my boss know. Next thing I know the one coworker I can trust pulled me aside to say everyone knew and was talking about me. I was mortified. The boss told everyone.
They drop your hours at with only a few days notice. Sometimes they say to go home at 1pm, and some days let you know at 3pm that you have to stay til 6.
People literally blank you for no reason. We’re given sub par equipment and expected to work miracles. The upper bosses get mad when we physically can’t produce what they want - but it’s impossible because we’re not given the tools.
Even a few days ago I came in about 10 minutes before work started and was printing off the schedule for the day and then started chatting to a colleague about how to do something on an Excel sheet. Another colleague came storming up yelling at us that we were supposed to be in work at 7 - we all were! We had been there in good time but were just sharing technical knowledge before the shift technically began.
I dread every single day now. I have lost count of the number of nights I just stay up because I dread sleeping. Sleeping means I wake up and have to go to work. I did Monday on about 4 hours of sleep. On Tuesday I didn’t sleep. I had today (Wednesday) off so slept in, but now I’m back in tomorrow - technically today - and it’s 2:44am. I am exhausted.
I am looking for another job, but I need a way to survive this. My whole life feels messed up. My house is a mess because I don’t have the mental energy to clean up. My finances are a mess because they cut hours when it suits them. And we weren’t told that was a possibility at the time. I am stressed beyond words and have no idea what to do to get through til I find something else. Please offer advice. I am so tired.