Guess my mbti except itsprolly js an 18 Yr navigating life lol
(Mb yall had to repost cause I forgot something)
I have my type narrowed down to at least the functions I might be using. I thought I’d come here again just to see if I’m right. Before, I was typed as ENTP/ESTP a lot, but after studying “functions” themselves, I can tell that Ti really doesn’t make sense compared to when I thought of Te or Fi. Looking at axes, Ne-Si doesn’t make sense for me either.
I genuinely don’t recall much, to be honest. The majority of my life has been “adapting to the now by fixing myself on what I should be and believe to be safe.”
If I were to look at myself objectively, it’d just be someone who was shy with crippling anxiety finding a new attitude they were supposed to have.
Like, do you ever think you can’t move on? Like you become your default self again after making efforts to get over it, but now because of one slip-up, or how differently you view life again. You need another route, but while you’re adjusting, you yourself are back at square one.
it was a lot of things, thinking back to trauma or as simple as study methods, navigating relationships, but it was also changing my personality each time, chasing what I should be chasing each time, to the point that once I returned back, I forgot the efforts I made and the “I should continue” mindset. Instead, it’s like I have to start over when I end up seeing how I became shy when speaking to a professor, id think 'damn it thats the old me thats the old habit i was trying to change'. I would then realize, “I stopped socializing, but the group I was with, it’s best I distanced myself because if I continued with that, I’d have no self-respect.” I don’t think there’s a big emphasis on “oh, I need a lot of friends.” It’s when I realize I’m not social and everyone’s doing something together that I become boring. But when I’m social one period, I’m not social the next.
I’m unable to make new friends to go out with because there’s a new focus again. Now I’m focusing on a 'new area in my life', which is maintenance. I need my GPA up, I need to focus on my diet, I need to buy these things, I need to follow these things for this. These take time. I don’t have the time to actually make the effort of building more relationships now, so honestly it’s fine if I have one close friend I talk to so that the personality I’ve built stays with me. But with new people, it seems forgotten. You get nervous until you realize, “This person needs another approach.” That’s when I remember how to talk and hold conversations. Same with professors: “They need a different way of handling, because what they’ve shown me tells me they don’t see me at all.”
Every day is a new narrative for myself, its making the effort for things to achieve a certain lifestyle, if im active, you collect new products idk maybe im weird but like it shows me that im changing if i bought something new that contributes to it, like only looking at protein the next time im out. Or only looking for a specific scent of perfume because, for some reason, I want to smell like berries and creamLMAO
I don’t know myself until it comes to products I’ve narrowed down, brands I’ve narrowed down. Things I’m interested in don’t seem real. I don’t do them religiously, nor do I really approach topics again until I’ve sat down with nothing to do, see it on YouTube, and then get engaged with it again. I think the only things I recall are when I've saved them, I have a whole board dedicated to 'coffee recipes' and 'makeup tutorials.' If I don't do them, they're still there saved, so therefore I've got that about me.
“Best revenge is self-maintenance.” I think this is how I can describe how I solve things. Because hardship comes easy, the only thing I ever do is make sure my routine is better than someone else’s, my appearance, my attitude, and my progress in life.
My uni major, even though it wasn’t chosen by me, I slacked off the first year, thinking my problems depicted the effort I should give. First semester, I had a ton of issues. But I still tried, I just wasn’t taking care of myself while finding balance. Thinking that “studying last minute helps” results showed it didn’t. “Studying all week should help” it didn’t. As long as I wasn’t connected with my environment and had no friends, I was still deciding how I should act with the things around me so that I could gain inner peace.
Actions didn’t seem to help me, so I tried thinking of it this way: when I distribute things into what will get me peace, it’s easier to deal with everything.
If I don’t like my major, it’s no problem, I can change it later on in life. But right now, what do i want? What's going to solve the issues of now? I care more about financial stability. The quicker, the better. My major is the quickest path and guarantees a stable life. This made me love it. Suddenly, I took pride in it.
As a trait; I lowkey would describe myself as someone who doesn’t really get frustrated quickly, but I hold a lot of “BS radar.” My spam account is just filled with stuff like, “Why describe your type as a weight and height instead of an actual description?” Like how people say, “I want girls who are 40kgs,” and then display a body figure that’s literally not 40kgs because if that were true, you’d be describing a child. “I want a guy who’s exactly 6’5.” No, you don’t. You just want someone who looks taller than you. you're literally 5 feet yo.
If I had all the time in the world to describe “my type,” it’d be someone who makes my lifestyle better, who can keep up with my future job, who can keep up with working out in the gym. Basically, it's just a lifestyle match. Someone to grow with. If I know you’re making that effort, obviously you’d look good to me. What’s with chasing models and all that?
I couldn’t tell that I learned this way, but I figured it out because it was the norm.
Let’s say I put a pan out. I’m cooking chicken, but I use oil instead. No recall of anything prior about how I’m supposed to grill it, but I know oil was involved in cooking before. Someone comes in and says, “Oh, you don’t put water first?” Why add water? “So it doesn’t stick to the pan, and it cooks faster.” And there you have it. The next ten times I’m cooking chicken, I’d do it this new way until I find something better that works.
Something similar with products, too. Something’s known to be good, but why are you saying it doesn’t work? But because there are tons of reviews, and the only thing you said is, “My parents used it, so idk, it doesn’t really work,” I might end up trying it myself anyway because idk looks legit.
Something I do dislike is when ppl talk all this crap about 'hey youve got potential' get ur ass out of my life what dyu mean by 'my potential' go figure out your own stuff, hate when people tell you to lock in when theyve got no locks going for them. anyways, obviously I want to try things myself or look at actual reviews, I can't call something real if I didn't learn the lesson myself.
If someone recommends me a workout through normal conversation and it’s something I already know doesn’t work, obviously I’m not trying it again. Like how a “workout” on Instagram doesn’t work because I know you need to burn calories and move around more than just doing one stretch a skinny person shows.
I have “life standards.” I might get them out of nowhere, though. Until now, I disliked marriage and dating because what I’d seen made it look like those things bring you down. Until I watched a video that showed how the media I followed was inaccurate, how these mindsets were led by hypocrites, showed her perspective, and made good points. My takeaway was realizing that if I saw something as “destructive” when there was a good option right in front of me, why do I have to follow a principle I made from examples that contradict what I’m seeing and what I might actually want?
I thought what I wanted were just “dreams and ideals” because they didn’t exist from what I’d seen since an article about someone’s marriage collapsing would always prove me wrong. But what if I didn’t have to dislike something just because the people around me don’t know the meaning of those things anyway?
When I looked at it as “a partner is growth,” it quickly changed from “not wanting marriage” to “what if good people do exist?” Does my principle change then?
So when I saw the lifestyle I’m adapting to and making efforts toward now, if one day I’m blessed with someone who does the same thing, then why would I want to end up alone if I repeatedly want to share my opinions and my day with people who are close to me?
But for one, I don’t like young marriages, I mean for myself though. Anyone these days can date and do what they want. I just think it stops you from building independence and taking the time to know what you want. Instead, people want to rush and get married early.
People want to be millionaires at 19. Good for them, but I dislike this cycle. I’ve mentioned it with appearance before in my documents. Nowadays, if you want to make a change in how you look, suddenly you’re “hypocritical” or “egoistic” because being healthy and losing weight has been labeled as trends. “If you’re ugly, then you’re so and so.” It’s BS. It’s become a running competition over everything humans do for growth, and now it’s all done for “competition” over who does it better.
This has been the norm for years, but I see it more consistently with people around me. “Who’s prettier? Who’s skinnier? Who’s smarter?” Catch a break. Why am I being rushed? And people camouflage it as “making a contribution to life.” How are you really contributing if your way of moving up was dumb as hell? Isn’t it the progress itself that contributes?
Anyway, so it ends up being: “getting married at 28?” Okay, we ball. Now I know what I want in a person too, case closed, move on. A kid as well? Maybe one at 30, okay that’s it. Not thinking and believing everything I see on the internet. Were good.
My life right now is I’ll have my fun looking at reviews of makeup brands and stuff I need, and I’ll buy what’s best to change one thing at a time as I grow older. You learn as you go, I guess. I think 18 is the year of assessment.' Same with 19 and 20, it's the years you call on bulshit of what you were raised on and differentiate what's useful and what's going to get you in the middle of nowhere. It's the years of changing yourself, not the years you're supposed to be set on 'alr getting married, already owning a yacht, a house, a buissiness.' That's stuff we look up to, but I'm not really up there yet, no rush 🤷♀️