What it’s like after two years NC
I’m pretty sure I’m doing better than I ever was when I was in contact with her, but it’s not clear.
I’m really struggling with my mental health still, but it seems like this year I will be able to hold a job for more than a year. I quite like my colleagues.
I’ve had a blow up argument this year with a friend which resulted in losing over £1,500 of savings to get away from them.
I still have nightmares about my parents, but the most recent one I had had a positive twist where my dream-mum said something supportive: “at the end of the day, it’s your choice who you want to sit with and who you want to touch”.
Sometimes the lack of safety net terrifies me, and the lack of birth family makes me feel horrible grief. I don’t have stable housing yet.
I don’t feel sure that I’m objectively doing better, but it’s a huge relief not to have to deal with such horrible people commenting on my life and violating my physical boundaries any more.
I guess I just want to know how other people are doing too. I doubt whether I made the right choice. I wonder if I chickened out of the best option: staying, but putting my foot down massively.