My ED was triggered by my sister’s
Hey all. I’m about three years recovered and had been doing really well. However, recovery does mean a little weight gain. My sister has been struggling with ana for the past 10 or so years, but had gotten better for the last three years. I saw her yesterday and it is very very bad. She’s thinner than she’s ever been. We were at a family function when I saw her and four separate people came up to ME or mentioned it in some way. I know that intervention needs to happen but I just can’t be a part of it and I feel very guilty because of that.
I’m sitting here realizing I am back in that same mindset myself just from being around her. My family doesn’t know that I went through treatment and recovery because I never let on that I was struggling, since she’s always been the main focus. I unfortunately “didn’t look sick enough”. She’s been a big contributor to my own illness since it’s such a competitive thing. I’m fighting to not go into a relapse rn.
The other problem is that we have a family vacation planned in two months where I am supposed to be sharing a condo with her. I am really considering my options as if a single day around her put my back in this mindset, what a week will do. I really don’t want to make this about me when I’m not the sick one.
Idk I guess I just need some opinions or advice on what needs to be done. My family always looks to me to help when she gets bad whether it be with her depression or her ED but I just don’t know if I can assist here. I feel my family would think I’m being selfish by saying I can’t deal with it anymore. I feel like the only way for them to understand why I don’t want to help and don’t want to vacation with her would be to “out” myself.