u/Global_Distance6129

10 years and I still can't wrap my head around the fact that my ( savior ) from being held captive, being physically abused and more 🙃....

Has made me start to feel captive again, and I have become scared 😱 to talk to him about how I feel in fear of it turning into an argument about HIM and what he do and don't do......

What i think I need is just some to talk to and help me through this situation.......

An a little thing about me was I was never taught how to set boundaries , never allowed to have an opinion are say , I was always at fault growing up maybe cause I'm the oldest of 10 and was raised by out grandparents so I really raised my sisters and brothers ..... but yeah ...

ANY SUGGESTION ARE HELP AN INPUT IS GREATLY APPRECIATED

Been with my spouse now 10 years ........

I'm getting to the point where it's becoming harder and harder to regulate my emotions like I've been doing for years.........

This has helped me In continuing our love because I know that for one a narcissist will never admit that they are and I know for 2 they will never change so I did.......

But for the past couple months things have become different and I'm starting to lose myself and I feel drained even after a good night's sleep.....

Can someone give me some insight and not the usual LEAVE HIM please see and that you......