u/Gloomy-Aardvark-2758

am 21M,

I’ve been gooning up to 3 times a day, and I really need help.

Yesterday, I didn’t do it because I tried to hold myself back—and I actually won. But today, from around 6 to 9, it felt like a constant battle between me and myself. I tried to resist, but I couldn’t anymore and ended up giving in. Now I’m on my third round.

For the past 3 weeks, my life has been like this. Afterward, I feel so guilty, like I’ve really let myself down. Every time I tell myself “this is the last time,” but the same pattern repeats.

Can I actually get out of this? If you’ve overcome something like this, please share your experience. I really need help—I feel like I’m drowning...