u/Gloomy-Curve-4227

I think lately I have been pushing people away, and its not just me trying to avoid them,but it's just that I don't feel like it. Mostly always I have never been someone's priority, weather it was friendship or relationships. In fact I think I have always been unlucky in terms of friendship. And it's not that I'm desperate. But it's feeling of that void, of that safe space with no judgments, no filter and atleast that one goddamn space that you can rely on emotionally and mentally, without any barter or games. So basically I don't feel like putting efforts anymore towards any sort of relationship, thinking that sooner or later, it has to end.