Idk what to do rn
I don't have a lot of hope anymore. My initial dreams were to go study in college abroad but I am a girl and my father didn't like the idea. I got acceptances but didn't go and chose to stay (that's my fault.) Now I'm stuck all over again and I don't know what to do. I want to live abroad at least once but if I go for my masters degree my parents would come live with me since its like only one or two years and 'since you're going there it's safer for us to stay with you' or they'd bring someone to 'watch' me at least. I'm tired of this. They're watching or monitoring my every movement. I'm thinking of transferring as well but I have no idea how to convince my family or get started on that while keeping up my freshman GPA. On top of this, I don't want to completely cut contact with them because of my younger sister. I'm trying to be happy but there's nothing going on in my life that's even relatively interesting anymore