u/GloomyScientist9284

I’m unsure whether I want to post this, but here we are anyway. I’m deep in suicidal thoughts lately, ideation is becoming stronger and stronger each day. I hide this from everyone, including my doctors. I’ve got constant debates going on inside my head on whether I want help or not. I tried that SHOUT text thing, but I’m almost 100% certain it’s not human the answers take like five minutes to come through and when they do come through it’s copy and pasted. What’s the point? They don’t seem to understand how a person truly feels in times of crisis and despair. Nobody in my family seems to understand, so I hide it behind a second personality I call Leo. He’s happy and bubbly, loves a good joke. But he’s, he’s just a mask