Hi, again
Hey there.
I haven't had the need to post here in a long while. I thought that I was doing pretty well for a few years now - and I was until a few days ago.
I had my emotions in check but a few incidents kinda threw my mind into a spiral of self-deprecation and loneliness. I had a friend who I really liked, for some reason I was ghosted and then blocked. Absolutely no reason at all and I feel that was the catalyst that sped up my feelings of zero self worth and loneliness.
In the mix I have this really sweet guy friend who has done nothing but be there for me in the tough times I have had recently. He has a terminal illness and I was really insensitive to it and his feelings. I feel I have pushed him away further.
And finally I have reacquainted myself with someone I really cared about but I feel that they do not need me into their life and it's heartbreaking.
I don't know what the point of this post is. I think that I just wanted some outlet to express how I feel. I am sorry for taking up your time...