Pregablin type 1 + uk rant (looking advice)
i have pain on my legs i have type 1 diabetes but no neuropathy they have me amnitrypt before and it didn’t work.
pregablin did after a while
however i love the high off downers as
especially benzos as they send me wired like cocaine.
and pregablin has always seemed like it belongs to the same sort of recreational high. i have taken it before to get hifh and sometimes do .
its a low dose and i gain tolerance very quickly
i’m on 300mg a day
if i stop it takes a few days but i get sick and my leg pain comes back.
there’s still some pain some days and i would like to up my dose. but i also know that the recreational side of me wants that too.
aswell as not wanting to feel the slight shame off taking “junkie” pills for the rest of my life. now that is no judgment by my own definition i would be a junkie.
and i know i will occasionally use them to get high im also concerned about being on these forever. many bad long term effects and ontop of my past lifestyle i can see dementia in my future.
the doctors stopped looking for a cause once they found a pill that stopped the symptom. as they have always done with me which is why ive been prescribed snris antipsychotic ssris beta blockers offered therapy, mental health sessions etc but i have not being diagnosed with anxiety which is a given or any of the other things i have going on. (sorry im ranting cause i cant get med weed without a diagnosis which a few doctors have finally agreed with me it is probably helping with a lot of my symptoms and not the cause of my anxiety)
i dont know what my question is im just looking for some advice.
It shocks me how little stigma other people have when i mention them just because a doctor prescribed them. but someone smoking a joint with a couple instead of drinking is seen as lowest of the low