I want some drugs
I’m not even joking. I am dying to just feel… free?! Literally… I even tried Feel Free kratom bc people said it works so good that you can get addicted but it literally did nothing but make my lips tingle.
I’ll preface this by saying: every day I imagine myself tossing my iPhone out the backseat window of an Uber XL that’s headed to the airport where I’ll ask the agent at the counter for the next flight to Colombia.
That’s the type of mom I am. Am I horrible one? Maybe idc. I’m okay with that. My family is not the highlight of my life. I have so many goals and aspirations but I’m stuck cooking and cleaning all day letting the last of my youth slip away.
But ok… anyway… I’ve been rawdogging life with a man and two toddlers and I realized… maybe I need some drugs! So I want to try something that could help me WOOSAH and get a better balance on my days and not hate my family.
I want some type of stress reliever, mood enhancing strain of something. I don’t smoke so no MJ, I want to avoid alcohol bc um 2 toddlers, I tried buying a e-cig hookah pen vape thing and the flavor just stayed stuck in the back of my throat, I tried feel free this week and it didn’t work. Right now the best drug on the market for me is Celsius (I never used caffeine/energy drinks until recently) it helps me get the mundane tasks out the way but I really want a head in the cloud feeling. What should I be looking for?